Walls that all people has

Thick walls,tall walls,long walls
All are the same,they are walls,
NO,i am not talking about ice creams,
I am talking about real walls

All walls are the same,
They block you from getting you cream,
My friends think i am lame,
Just cause i have a different Dream

This wall i am talking about,
It isn't physical,
But it lies inside all of us,
A wall that we created for people and us

Hate,hurt,discrimination despair,
We hurt and get hurt by this walls we set up,
So now my freinds why not we wake up,
To stop this vicious cycle,
To let love in to tear down these walls

I am lost in a game they called life

Life we call it,
A GAME they name it,
Our lifetime we spend on it,
Yet nothing to the grave with it

What is important in this Game,
That could drive us creatures Insane?
Covet,Greed,lust?
Or is it us just wanting to be loved?

In this Game,It has become a maze,
A maze that i was lost in the begining,
Lost in the maze of life
Without our bringer of life

Then i stopped to say a simple prayer,
On bended knees with a open heart,
Knowing that it will be like this,
If i don't say this simple words

I am lost in this game they called life,
Please be my life

Passion with God

What do you love doing?Sports?Arts?Writing?E-sports?Singing?Why do we do this kind of things even though we know that there are other important things to do?Cause all of us have a common trait and it is called passion.Without this we would have given up a long time ago.We would want to be the best at what we do.Needless to say,at trying to become the best,we have to sacrifice a lot of other things.What sacrifices u ask?Lets take a look,sleep perhaps?Time for enjoyment?Childhood for some in hopes that they will become famous one day?All this things are useless if you doing this on your own because your accomplishment means nothing if you don't have God.He gave us the talent not to make yourself above others but to share his word with others to the ones who havent heard if Him before.

Racism

The world is judging,
Judging by the colour,
What colour you may be asking,
The colour of our skins,
The same colour blood flows through our veins

Seats giving to the undeserving,
Authority granted to the unworthy,
Are they really that deserving,
Or is it the pride for your colour of your skin?
The same colour blood flows through our skin

Banana,white,black
Why cant u just hold back your attacks?
Why cant we be all equalls,
To prevent a war of civils,
The same colour blood flows through our veins

I want you damn fools to be colour blind,
I want this world to be a heaven to abide,
All this time it was pride that took control,
So why not let love in and let it have its will,
The same colour blood flows through our veins

A teardrop of sorrow flows through my eyes

Why have you got to do this to me?
To what you once called your brothers and sisters,
Betrayal,Backstabing,Gossiping,LIES,
A teardrop of sorrow flows through my eyes

You no left me with nothing,
Nothing to lean back on,
What better are you than a bastard,
That feeds off peoples turd,
Another day passes by,
A teardrop of sorrow flows through my eyes

It is not too late 'brother',
To take back what you once held so dear,
What happened to our promise,
Or does it end like this?
A teardrop of sorrow flows through my eyes

End like how you ask me?
End like a rose trampled by you,
Only to know that it wasnt accidental,
But intent to kill me from the front,
A teardrop of sorry flows through my eyes,

I was a fool to had trusted you,
A title of 'brother' in which you were not worthy to hold,
My ambitions,dreams,desire and goals i told you,
I guess that does not matter now,does it?
A teardrop if ire now feels my soul

New Begining perhaps?

Christmas is almost here,so that means it is going to be new year soon.Wonder what will happen next year?Hmm....i think i am going to stop for a moment to look back at what happend.First major thing happened was the transfer of schools.Wasn't that bad was it?Next was Genting..HAha...went up with a few friend and hell yea we had fun.Next thing was a youth camp at my church!!Not what i expected.You can say i was pleasantly surprised,it felt more like a retreat than a highly pack mayhem!!!Lastly is a matter concerning friendships.Haiz...why cant it just be the way it was?I mean it is fine just the was it was right?What doesn't break us will make us stronger,heard it before?Why cant it just be like that?But this does not apply now,don't you agree?First of all,you lied to me.How can you lie to you 'best friend'??Does that word even mean a thing to you?Secondly,Gossiping.Why?I thought that you promised me that the bond we made will never be severed,we will take it together.All i just want to say is,not say,crying it out is that why were you living a double life?Aren't friends that stick with you no matter what good enough for you?Why?Why this?Why now?I teared and was fill with ire when I heard of it.I hope that you will realize that the world does not owe u a living and when u want recognition you don't demand it,you earn it.
Anyways....it's christmas,a time for giving they say so my present for you this christmas is broken relationships that you left behind just to get recognition,hope you like it

Merry Christmast

A song that everybody need but dreads to hear

Outcast is all i get,
cause' of some things that i don't want to forget,
Can all this be changed?
In every four part song

People die cause of starvation,
People die of gluttony,
People would do anything,
Just to stop the four part song,

Blood drops is all i see,
Sorrows brought me to my knees,
No one is here for me,
Except for this four part song

I laid at my death bed,
My head filled with regret,
Why didn't i do a good deed,
As God did it for me
He put a song in my heart,
A four part song he put,
To lead more people to him

The wounds are getting less painfull

I had a nice chat with my teacher today and i just found out that i am not alone in this journey.When i opened my heart to see i just realized that i had so many people that cared about me and didn't see me as just another friend.I got 1 person to thank for this,thanks.This is all for now,I know this post is kind of short but yea...thanks guys for being here....<3

Fitting In[2]

It's getting better i think.I still miss them like crap though but yea....its getting better.Thanks to jun kit which made me see a lot of things that i didn't see,i think my life in PTS is going to be kind of interesting.I am not going for camp edi,so yea,i got to start somewhere.I didn't even notice it,I was talking and suddenly he whispered in my ear,wat are you talking abt when you said you don't fit in,you fit in just fine!This post is thanking him...you opened up,not my eyes but my heart....<3

The New Old

I meet new friends from my old school and yet it still feels different.Its not like now where i feel like i am not one of them,its like when i meet them i am accepting them into the family.The family which i hold so dear to my heart.But now i feel like they just treat me as ANOTHER friend,not REALLY caring about me and i just miss that.That's all today i guess,If i was given the choice,I would wanna go back.....I MISS YOU GUYS....

The Hurt,The fun,The SHIT..i just love it all

I was going fine untill....untill i saw the photos again.I just imagined myself there,wouldn't it be better if i was there?I cant concentrate in class anymore nowadays.Everybody seems to go along fine except for me,what is that suppose to mean?U want to know wat i saw?It is my passion,my life,the thing that we all love...FOOTBALL<3.....yes.I was looking at my old school football teams picture and the person missing from there was me.....why did i leave?Why am i such a fool?When i play with them i feel like we could beat any team in the world,i feel free,i feel connected.Can i ever get that here?10 years of friendship,we dont even need to plan,we just need to look at eachother and we already know wat we want....not just in football...in everything....can i get friends like that here?

A day

I felt it all over again.The feeling of loneliness when i know that all my besties are not beside me.I will do anything,just anything to have things like last time.Yea sure we fight but we are always closer when we get on level terms with each other.Spending a day with them...i just wished time would stop and stay like that but its reality so yea....I will NOT move on..cause i only have 3 words....I MISS YOU....

Home

I just visited my old school today and if i had to say it in a word its this word,HOME.I felt so at home,my friends,teachers and parents.They all seem to care for me.I felt at peace wishing that time would just stop and i could be there forever but its reality.Life has to go on and all i have now are memories of them.I will take all of it because i just love them...Out not...post tomorrow...parents scolding...pfft

Fitting In

Tomorrow is THEME DAY and i am the only one not attending it.I really don't like these kind of things.You can ask me do stupid stuff crazy stuff but this just ain't really my thing.I guess i haven't gotten used to the culture yet.I guess the word is,i just don't fit in.Everybody seems happy about the new school except for me.It's not the people inside i promise.It's just me.I mean like 10 years of memories just down the drain.I guess i am not willing to let go yet,I have unfinished business to do in my old school and yea....bottom line....I DON'T FIT IN....

Her again

Why does she always reappear in my life again?I just saw her again and it just brought back my memories.Very painful ones indeed.I though that if I just never saw her again it would be just alright but NO!It just wouldn't go away.Is it telling me something.That i should ask her again?For one more chance.It would be so akward wouldn't it?All i ask was just to be friends and she does not want that,she says that she wants to be the one.Why!Why cant we just be friends?Isn't friends good enough?I guess i can never understand you,never did,never will.

Memories

Happy memories,sad memories,painfull memories.....it's all still worth keeping to me.A lot of people tell me to take the good but leave the bad.I won't!!!For it's just no use doing that.A person bonds deeper only when they go through sad and painful times together.As a saying goes,"it's the journey not the destination."

Sports Day

Life if going well.Very good i say but there's something that i am very depressed about.It's my ex-school sports day!!!!!!!!!!!!!I can't get it out of my head.I just miss the times where my friends and I ran side by side not caring about the shirt colour we are in.We just ran because we love to.Friends at the side who were not running was cheering us on.I miss those times.NO.I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO GET IT AGAIN.They mean everything to me.Without them,i guess i won't be who i am today.They molded me from being a person hating life to a person that loves it and not wasting a single second cause,life is short.....unfortunately i can't be part of it this year.I guess people sometimes have to let go even though it hurts.....I had sleepless nights cause i just can't stop thinking about you all....that's how much you all mean to me.....You all will never be replaced always having a space in my heart but at the same time i need to find new friends cause i think i will just stop functioning without them....so here it goes.....GOOD LUCK TO THOSE THAT ARE RUNNING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!

A whole new chapter

Its been awhile since i bloged...so yea.Here it goes.I am in a new school now.Yea,it was sad,very sad at the end of the year but everything is Gods will...so yea,i just went without any regrets.I had no idea what it would be like.It's O levels man!!!!!!So yea....On the first day,3 words.....OMG!!!!!Have u ever seen a Joshua,sitting still from 9-5....yea!!!!Thats right!I was just sitting alone....being antisocial just thinking about my computer games untill.Before i knew it....it was alredy 4.45....went back home....sleep...same thing except...all us were rearranged based on our electives,i was put in 4ONYX.....not bad class though :P......same thing happend....ANTISOCIAL!!!!!!!!!Then the next day....it was much better.....this guy with a mushroom head named LEONARD came to me and said hi....so yea...made a friend there.....as days turned into days and days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months.....i got to know a lot more ppl.And yea...this school isn't the same as other schools.This school has friends and teachers that take you for who you are and not what you are.But no matter what happens....the memories that was engraved onto my heart will never go away cause because of them,I would not be who i am today.....